I AM STILL THINKING!!!

P.s. NOTE:-  If you are expecting a thoughtful post here…then then then I must warn you..its not gonna happen so… so get ready to THINK…

Ok opened my blog page after a longggggg time.. and the first reaction I had was – o Teri this is my blog? Hahhahaaa I even forgot the topic I last wrote on…

So today I was determined that I will write a blog post…. ok so opened up WordPad, and started thinking…. I mean I was thinking what to write… time went on but still I kept on THINKING.. Gosh it seems I am still thinking while writing this post…

Am I the only one facing it? Hope not hahhaaaa…oh great now I am yawning…!

Had a weird thought few days back… chalo let me share it with you all…

What if  all the living objects or the ones that cant speak like dogs or cats or rats and trees start speaking? Imagine them expressing their feelings…

Imagine a situation where a Maruti SX4 is having a conversation with a Maruti 800 car…

SX4 TO Maruti 800 –“ uff tumhari usul tumharey aadarsh! Kis kaam key hai tumharey usul? …  dekho hum dono ek saath iss Maruti company sey paida huye they…aaj merey paas new style hai, improved engine hai…sab kuch naya hai… paar tumharey paas kya hai? “

Maruti 800- SX4 –“ Merey paas merey puraney loyal owners hain”

Reading this part of conversation we can be sure about the fact that both of the Maruti products are fans of THE LIVING LEGEND Mr.Amitabh Bachchan..

Ok now lets move on to some other example…. Ummmm given a chance, what would a street dog like to say to the owner of a pet dog?Lets imagine a scene … 

Street dog to the pet dogs owner-

“kya yaar kabhie hum lawaaris o ko bhi adopt kiya karo.." and then starts singing- "ek chance toh dey dey merey yaar phir udaan dekhley ;-) ”

Oh I should mention this… I AM STILL THINKING ;-)

Ok another example – the scene is between a treadmill and a man weighing around 120 kgs… uhhh!!

Treadmill to the man weighing 120 kgs-

  “ kya bey mootey? Peheley toh itna khata hain…phir mota mota tyres banata hain, kamar ko kamra banata hai, phir jab kuch nehi bachta hain, toh aa key merey upar chad jata hai…hai re meri fhuti kismat!!!”

Then the treadmill will start singing-“  Saari duniya ka bojh hum uthatey hai..log aatey hain log jaatey hai, hum yehi pey kharey rehey jaatey hai…saari duniya ka bojh hum uthatey hai…”

Bhagam bhag!!!

O gosh! this is what I came up with after thinking for such a longggggg time… and I AM STILL THINKING…!!!

Ok my dear readers… its time for you guys to THINK if you want to read it or not… but I will be back when I start my THINKING process again.. until then you guys keep on THINKING!!! dimag ki batti jalao…

Do we really have an END to IT?

      She worked for a call centre..He was a 16 year old boy,about to appear for His boards exam in few months. Almost everyday he would go to bring his sister back home from work. He did the same that day. But destiny had in store something really horrible for the brother and sister. While returning back home they were chased by a gang of boys who tried to sprinkle alcohol on his sister and molest her. On protesting the group pounced on him,started kicking hard and finally stabbed him to death. The girl went on pleading for mercy. She tried to stop vehicles for help,but none stopped. Her cries went unheard.

     Today I did see a mother cry helplessly for her dead son. Everyday while sleeping at night she hopes and prays that everything will turn out to be a horrific dream and that her son will return to her. They are poor and had brought up three kids with lot of trouble. They are still fighting for justice.

      Today I do have a lot of unanswered questions in my mind. We all do have them on listening to such incidents. May be we didn't face them but we do fear ,what we would have done if we had to face the same? What mistake did the boy commit? Tried to save his sister, that was the mistake? Group of boys armed, kills a boy who is unarmed and innocent and single. Wow!! what our society is turning into? What is lacking? What is the exact reason behind all these? The culprits still keeps on threatening the family.. no sign of regret.. they are showing their power of money now. What kind of a justice is this on GOD’s part? The girl is molested almost everyday in court by the opposition lawyer, her parents watch it helplessly.. is this called justice?

      People say whatever God does its done for some good reason.. is their any good reason behind this incident? The family doesn't want sympathy but they want justice.. so that they don’t see another innocent boy dying while trying to save his sister.

      We can listen to such incidents and think and get affected but the actual pain can always be understood by the victim. Parents can only understand what it is to see their child’s   death, their sufferings.

     There are many such incidents which leaves us shocked.. such incidents have destroyed the lives of the victims but their culprits are moving around freely and leading a normal life..examples are that of acid throwing victim Sonali Mukherjee, rape victim Aruna Shanbaug and many others. WHY? What is their mistake? Who have given those inhuman beasts of our society the right to destroy their lives?

Aruna Shanbaug

Sonali Mukherjee

Power should be used for the betterment of society , of individuals who are in need and not use against them.

    I feel our country’s legal system is really lacking somewhere.. I even feel that these beasts should be handed over to the common public.. their judgement should be done by the victims and not by any judge sitting in a room, who doesn't even know what exactly the victim have faced and is still going through.. many may think or say that  common people cant take law in their hands..but answer a simple question of mine as asked before even.. who have given right to those culprits to decide the fate to these innocent people? I feel some example should be really set.. so that these beasts learn a lesson and others think several times before committing such sins..

Maa Kali

    Cant we be a bit more human? Cant we hold a bit more respect for each one of us, specially for girls? A woman does have different faces- she can be your mother, your sister, your girlfriend, your wife, your daughter… what would you do if something as such happened with them? They are not any object to be used and thrown away..when we can give respect to Maa Kali ,Maa Durga , Maa Laxmi, Saraswati then why not a normal female gender? Think.. maybe its time to stop PREYING upon them and start RESPECTING them..

WAKE UP SOCIETY… WAKE UP..!!

FAILURE IS THE WAY TO SUCCESS

"There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve; the fear of Failure"

                                                                                                        -Paulo Coelho

  The above quote states it clear what my post is all about. "Failure" &"risk"..almost every human being fears to face these words.. to say "failure is the pillar of success" is much easier than to face it in real life..Most often we see parents  suggesting their children to follow a safe path..be it in terms of education, or anything else..the reason they state behind this logic is -" your life will be secured" ahhh!! is that always true? is it confirmed that if we move out of the basic rules and take a bit of risk in life then we will fail, and never stand up again. Nah!! I guess I and my parents dont fall in this category of thinking..Both my parents are DOCTORS,as a normal expectation/so called norm of the society,i am also supposed to be a doctor...but no I have chosen Acting as my profession..I must admit after accepting this profession, I have learnt a very important word in my life "PATIENCE" ..I agree almost everyday I am facing rejections, but still everyday is a new begining for me, a new challenge..in the midst of all failures when I achieve success, that feeling is just priceless... someone told quite rightly..failing several times will make you learn the path to success...thats true...

      I idolize a Persona in my life..He is none other than THE AMITABH BACHCHAN. Not only do I follow his acting career but also his life graph, His nature, His dedication..This man have achieved a lot, have lost a lot and have regained a lot.The time when HE stepped into this industry,it was a time period for the good looking heroes.. at that phase enters a tall,lean, deep baritone voiced man. The amount of rejections this Persona faced, I guess if that is faced by any of todays budding actors. Height and voice were his biggest negative aspects at that time..but then these two features became his signature along with the powerful acting..Amitabh Bachchan before stepping into this industry had a secured job, a secured life..but this man left the security in the wish to acheive His dreams.. that was the risk taken... rejections were his life's moment of failure...and the stardom & the fan followings are his moments of achievement that came after those failures..He introduced a new era in the industry (THE ANGRY YOUNG MAN) ..He faced failure in the field of politics...but He learnt a very important lesson from that sphere..He faced failure in the field of production, but again gained success..this MAN at the age of 69 is still giving tough competition to todays gen actors,and above all has the capacity to attract fans of our age..ruling in this industry for 43 years and still so humble.. faces failure at this age too,but never an inche reduction is noticed in his committment..never fears to take risk..doing a different character everytime, proves his risks taking power at this age even..every single member of this Industry dreams to work with HIM.. age doesnt stop HIM from undertaking risks,trying out something new...and thus whatever HE does is a trendsetter...

 Amitabh Bachchan

    There are many more personalities who could have been mentioned in this post...I have mentioned BIGB as i have studied this man and I am trying to embibe his qualities...we must have the courage to think out of the box..it doesn't always assure success,but that shouldn't stop us from trying...whenever one tries to think or do something different,he or she has to face rejections..another such great example is  Dadasaheb Phalke..when he tried to do something different,he was opposed but  the confidence of his worth, the execution of his task and the humility of his superiority made him a winner... Life without failure and risk would have been dull..experiment everyday...every new day in life should see something new withing us... 

  

     

Dadasaheb Phalke

This picture of Bill Gates is Apt for the post.....

     Never limit taking risks just because of the fear of failure...move forward..do your bit..success will be achieved...Success will never knock your door..you have to invite it,by your hard work...its never too late to try out things...failure is a part of human life..accept it and move on, that will make life easier and interesting

26/11 -THE DATE SAYS IT ALL...

Todays date is enough for me to write my article-- 26th november...in the year 2008 was nothing less than a worst nightmare...three years later also it pokes me somewere within that why we had to face such a day? why did they do this? what did they achieve by doing it? and many more hidden questions whose answer is not yet clear for a normal human being, who might have been affected some way or the other that day(26.11.08)...

Thanks to the electronic and the print media for whom we were always updated about the happenings, could visualize the destructions, pain, fear.....it was not a smooth watch even...when I went off to sleep that day and the following two days, atleast once I used to think what are those that are facing the disaster going through? what more are they facing at this moment?...I know some might think after reading this, that I was just thinking about all this sitting in my own comfort zone...but that was the most that I could do at that very moment...as because no one except the ones who faced can imagine even, what it is to see or know that you can die any moment...

After this incident I one day came across the book written on KASAB...dont know what was going within me at that moment!! but I bought the book...and I sarted reading the first page on that moment itself...and now when I completed reading the book, I feel, might be the hidden anger that I had and still have for this creature, made me read the book and know about this Butcher(KASAB)...he truly proves his names meaning - BUTCHER...

After reading the book I did come to know many things about how these people turn from a human being to a merciless creature?...came to know why they become so? and many more such things...after reading the total incident how it happened, I cant express what was my feeling... what kind of uneasiness I was facing within me myself.. how much bitterness did I gather while reading it..the question that repeatedly went on within me was HOW? HOW can a human being kill another such species in such a merciless way? what have they turned into? atleast animals are more merciful than them...

We who were not directly affected with the incident might have forgotten to some extent...but we cant even imagine what it is and was for the families who faced its outcome.. will they ever be able to forget this day? will they ever be able to clear a hidden fear from their inner soul? they might try to show they are brave and have started leading their normal life, but down the memory lane many couldnt forget, they cant forget ,which is obvious...people say mumbai have faced a lot and they again have the ability to forget and lead their normal life...its true but another hidden truth is - do they really have any other choice rather than this?

Innocent people were killed without any fault of theirs, they were not even given a moment to realize what was happening, they didnt have the oppertunity to fight back...WHY? I dont think the ALMIGHTY sitting up there even have the answer to this common question...

Wanna give a respectful SALUTE to our INDIAN ARMY and MUMBAI POLICE DEPT...the ones that sacrificed their lives for saving these innocent people...I dont want to mention any particular name because apart from the names that were mentioned at that moment there might have been many such brave men whose name didnt get noticed...so I SALUTE to all those brave hearted men who sacrificed their lives for the nation without a second thought...they fought for us unconditionally...howmuch ever we praise them it will fall short in front of their contribution and sacrifice...

Want to ask GOD that are all these incidents really needed? why are we facing a situtation, were human beings have become so in-human that they are ready to take each others life mercilessly?...what can one achieve by doing so? what pleasure does GOD get by making such things happen?whats the fault of those innocent hawkers in the station, those innocent people who might have been in the station to recieve some near or dear ones, those innocent people who where having dinner with their loved ones, the innocent people who were on visit, and many such innocent people who while leaving their house that day, didnt even imagine that they wont return back?..

After three years, even today the culprits are not given due punishments...why? huhhh!! I consider myself to be foolish to ask such a question, because I dont think we will ever get an answer to it...

How much ever I write its not going to give back the families their lost ones, nor will it be able to wipe out the fear from within the ones who faced it, nor will it help to rectify the situations...but still I decided to write because somewere within ,some unidentified force, forced me to write ...might be this is how I wanted to remember the sacrificed souls, the horrific incident and today's date...

I would like to end by praying to GOD, that please dont repeat such incidents, use your magical wand to stop these happenings,we dont need them in our lives...the sun rises and sets on YOUR wish so control the uneasiness and the inner animal of these in- humans who are doing all these merciless incidents...

After reading the article many might like what I wrote and many might not...but I am not writing it for being praised, I am writing it as a form of shradhanjali from my end,for the innocent souls who lost their life on that horrendous day...may their souls rest in peace...

My this article is not only for the victims of 26/11 but for all the innocent victims who were preyed upon by the illeterate villains and the inhuman creatures...

LIFE IS PRECIOUS DONT END IT IN SUCH A WAY!!!

           Was thinking about a matter from the past few days. An incident that struck me..even tough its a very common one now-a-days..but dont know why? Few days back i went to a studio for some work over there I found a little girl posing for kids wear..she was so cute went and hugged her...she was so so so sweet hardly the age of 6 years...had a great time watching her give cute and innocent poses. After she went away I came to know a bitter true about her life..her father had committed suicide a year ago,her mother is working as a baby sitter and she performs such modelling..they are very needy...I dont know what I was feeling at that moment...i really dont...i was just silent at that moment and tried to find some answer as to why people do this?...but just couldnt...at that moment i was only recollecting the innocent moment I enjoyed with the little girl...does she really understands the absence of father at this age? How will she react as she grows up? What will she answer others when,will be asked as to how her father died? why ?What is the judgement of God?

         Kept on thinking this very incident for the past few days...why do people run away from their responsibility? Its not necessary that our life will be smooth all the time...! yesterday had a lazy day so decided of reading books...so after searching choose the one that was gifted to me by my friend- Robin Sharma-Discover Your Destiny...started reading the book completed an entire chapter...it is a complete inspirational book, from the first chapter itself it boosts ones confidence. The author himself writes in the first chapter that He once tried to commit suicide when he found that his wife left him together with his children, but certain sort of force stopped him...he just couldnt commit suicide.

The author quotes a true saying of osho

 Life does not listen to your logic;it goes on its on way,undisturbed.

You have to listen to life, life will not listen to your logic...

          I feel that people committing suicide are coward they dont have the ability to face the bad side of life...as stated in the book , there are season to our lives and painful time never lasts..

"trust that the winter of sorrow will yield to the summer of your joy, just as the brilliant rays of the morning always follow the darkest part of the night"...

I feel if anyone sees life like this then that individual will never say "I dont find a way out" in case of problems or sorrow... We often feel that the problems that we face are the biggest one ,no one else can face such a problem. But if anyone thinks and sees properly then we will find that our suffering is nothing compared to others...

      Few days before KBC had showcased such problem...in their special episode dusra mauka , were they gave chance to a widow of a farmer to earn some money that will help her in someway...her husband was a farmer who committed suicide because of the debt..but she inspite of loosing everything  was still able to lead her life with her children...she had to face many problems but she was able to overcome it...did her husband even think once that what would his family  face due to his desicion? KBC, hats off for giving a second chance to these needy people.

       Through these write up I would only like to request and suggest that ending up the life is not the solution...ending life is a sign of a looser and not a winner...by commiting suicide we tend to run from our responsibility...we forget how the soldiers are fighting for our lives at the cost of theirs...we should try to develop the courage within ourselves to fight with the odds..when we can welcome happy moments in our life so properly then why cant we also welcome the odds...I know its easy to say but hard to perform...but if everyone keeps on thinking this then this problem will never end...we have lost the capability to try out something new...we always try to be under the shelter...we get afraid when any change enters our life...we tend to fail with new changes...and for some they choose the solution of suicide...

    Some might think that I am quite small to comment on the hardship of life..but the fact is I will also grow to that age someday were I will have to face hardship of life...I atleast will never want to end my life in such a way, running away from responsibilities...I want to grow confidence and enough courage within me to welcome the odds of my life as I do in case of happy moments...bless me GOD, bless me elders...

     I would like to earnestly request all the individuals of this country to avoid this solution...suicide is not the solution...its a way that depicts failure...a little suggestion if possible read the books of Robin Sharma....they are truly inspirational...

 I would like to end the write up by stating a line from the book itself-

"Your life is a treasure and you are so much more than you know"

ANOTHER UNFORGETTABLE DAY OF MY LIFE...

      16TH OF OCTOBER 2011... AS USUAL I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND THE FIRST THING I DO IS CHECK THE TWITTER FOR MY BIG B'S POST, SO THAT I CAN REPLY . WHILE CHECKING THE TWEETS I FOUND OUT THAT BIG B HAD MENTIONED DEVANG JOSHI AN EF MEMBER...AS OBVIOUS HUMAN NATURE I FELT QUITE DEPRESSED, I ALSO DO TRY EVERYTIME BUT WHY DONT I GET A REPLY FROM THE PERSONA I LOVE THE MOST, I ADORE THE MOST?...ANYWAYS WITH A LITTLE HEAVY HEART I COMMENT ON HIS TWEETS AGAIN. DID REQUEST BIG B TO MENTION ONCE MY NAME IN TWITTER ATLEAST...
        GOT UP FRESHENED UP AND READ THE NEWSPAPER..BUT STILL TIME DOESNT TEND TO MOVE FAST ON SUNDAYS...STARTED HELPING MY FRIEND ON HER PROJECT OF PAGE3 REPORTING...THANKS TO THE PROJECT THAT HELPED ME TO PASS TIME FASTER...BUT IN THE MIDST OF THESE I KEPT ON CHECKING THE IPHONE,HOPING TO SEE SOME MIRACLE HAPPEN WITH ME. HOPING TO SEE A NOTIFICATION IN TWITTER APP SHOWING- @SRBACHCHAN KANKANA LOVE YOU TOO......WOW WHAT A FEELING WOULD THAT GIVE BUT FOR THAT MOMENT IT WAS JUST A DREAM AND DIDNT SEEM TO HAPPEN IN REALITY. CONTINUED WITH MY WORK...
        AT AROUND 11.40 A.M. MY CELL PHONE RINGS SHOWING ANTHONY BHAIYA...RECEIVED THE CALL AND FROM THE OTHER SIDE BHAIYA SAYS "KANKANA DID YOU CHECK THE BLOG?" , I REPLIED " NO BHAIYA NOT YET,BUT WHY?", HE REPLIED "CHECK THE BLOG BIG B HAVE REPLIED IN THE BLOG , HE REPLIED TO YOUR COMMENT TOO" ....PAUSE FOR A SECOND ON MY SIDE...THEN I SPEAK,"BHAIYA ARE YOU KIDDING?IT ISNT A JOKE RIGHT?", HE SPOKE" JUST OPEN AND CHECK IT OUT".....OH MY GOD!!! HAVE ALREADY STARTED SCREAMING OUT OF EXCITEMENT, HANDS ALREADY STARTED SHAKING ,PRETTY CONFUSED WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW, WAS BEHAVING LIKE AN IDIOT...(BUT ON A NOTE FOR BIG B -SIR ITS NOT MY FAULT TO BEHAVE AS AN IDIOT,ALMOST EVERYONE DOES IF THEY GET SUCH NEWS)...
       TRIED TO OPEN THE LAPTOP BUT OH GOSH!!! THE ANTI VIRUS KEEPS ON CHECKING THE HARD DRIVE ....CANT WAIT FOR A SINGLE MOMENT...I CALL UP MY BEST FRIEND RIKI IN NOIDA AND ASK HER TO CHECK IT OUT AND SEND ME A SNAP IN MY BLACKBERRY...TOOK A FEW MOMENT TO MAKE HER UNDERSTAND AND THEN SHE DOES AS TOLD...MY BB PINGS AND I SEE THE PICTURE...O MY GOD,O MY GODDDD!!!....ITS TRUE...ALMOST GONE MAD...CALLED MY DAD SHOWED MY MOM...THEY ARE EQUALLY EXCITED AS I AM...LUCKILY MY LAPTOP OPENS AND SOON I OPEN UP THE BIGADDA PAGE AND THEN TO THE COMMENTS AND THEN SCROLL DOWN TO NUMBER 4 COMMENT,DOWN TO THAT IN A YELLOW HIGHLIGHT SHOWS MY GODS COMMENT- "KANKANA...LOVELY MEETING ALL OF YOU"
      KEPT ON READING THAT ONE LINE HIGHLIGHTED IN YELLOW ,TIME AND AGAIN AND PINCHED MYSELF TWICE...ULTIMATELY BELIEVED IT... THE FIRST THING I DID IS THANKED MY BIG B,MY IDOL,MY GOD (BIG B). SECONDLY UPDATED MY FACEBOOK STATUS...WAS FEELING AN INNER PRIDE WHILE UPDATING IT...
      THANK YOU GOD FOR  HEARING MY INNER VOICE. ITS HARD TO DIGEST AS TODAY IN THE MORNING I WAS FEELING BAD AND HOPING TO RECEIVE A COMMENT...AND IT GOT FULFILLED...ITS SO TRULY SAID THAT- IF YOU WANT SOMETHING WHOLE HEARTEDLY IT SURELY GETS FULFILLED...I WANTED WHOLEHEARTEDLY TODAY AND GOD HELPED ME...WISH MY BIGGEST DREAM OF WORKING WITH BIG B , GETS FULFILLED VERY SOON...I WORK HARD EVERYDAY ,EVERY MOMENT FOR IT...BIG B LOVE YOU LOTS ...WILL CONTINUE LOVING TILL I DIE...AAPKO MERI UMAAR LAAG JAAYE SIR...
                                                                                       LOVE N RESPECT 
                                                             KANKANA CHAKRABORTY- A CRAZYYYY FAN

THE PRICELESS MOMENT OF MY LIFE

        Every individual in their life wants to experience the day which they can tag as the most memorable day or the golden moments. Fortunately I have also experienced that day very recently.It was a day in my life which I dont think I can forget even after several rebirths. Rather I would not want to even. That day was 11th october 2011.

       I am a die hard , huge, crazy fan of big b. I idolize, respect and love this persona. He comes 1st in my life and then any other secondary persons. People who are his true fans are my friends.

      My sole dream of life was to meet big b and seek his blessings, as i have an aim to work with him in any of the creative field.On this date it got fulfilled.Every year on this date I send him letters and watch 18 hours television and switch every channel to get a glimpse of my GOD. But this year I got  blessings from my God. Now I know what it feels to see GOD,touch GOD.

      I would like to specially thank two people who made my dream come true- fb group (kishore bhatt and meena akbani), without you two I could have never done this. How much ever I thank you two it would be less. Through this post I would like to recall that special day(11th october 2011).

      That day I landed mumbai airport at around 8.45 am. Every thing was decided and planned well between the fortunate lot of group members. At first we were supposed to meet at a place and then move together to JANAK, my GOD'S office. As per decision it went on. When the clock struck 12 pm we all (Me, meena aunty, kabir, divya,anthony,depal, my mom, vikrant,mayur,devang, anandh, sikander) started our journey for JANAK. That was the moment when I could not control the flying butterflies within my stomach anymore.We reached JANAK and waited for some time outside. I was so excited, till date I visualised the crowd in television but now I could see the madness of the people in real. After sometime meena aunty went inside and slowly she took everyone of us inside. Then it was the time for us to wait for our turn...

Finally the moment arrieved.We went inside this office room and waited for big b to enter.After sometime enters the tall persona-my GOD, oh my GOD!!!!!...That was the first reaction I had. I touched his feet and kept staring at him.Oh god what a personality!!! Then HE started the individual photo session...I was the second one to get the photo..i was literally shaking at that point of time. Then slowly everyone started giving their gifts to him...I also did the same...it was a great feeling, a feeling that cannot be expressed in so limited vocabularies. He was not left for a single moment, me myself didnt leave him...I hope that was obvious for a fan like me meeting her GOD for the first time. 

JUST SEE THE SMILE.....

CAN NEVER FORGET THIS MOMENT...

        Meena aunty gifted Sir the cd that included the poems and notes given by the group members and the EF's .It was a very touchy gift. When we were inside no one bothered to find out how long we were there. Everyone was so deeply involved with their God.This is a persona who still holds the capability to attract every group of people, every generation.No one can ever substitute this persona.Three aspects that India has and not other countries- Taj mahal, Lata Mangeshkar mam and one and only MY BIG B. He was so sweet to listen to whatever I said. He blessed me, He wished me for my birthday. What more should I ask for? He has a magnetic personality, with whom he attracts us and everyone present around HIM. His hands are like a velvet. His smile can wipe away any sad moment. It gives a different sort of happiness that everyone wants to expeirence once.

   The time when HE was leaving I felt my everything was going away. I wish I could keep him always with me...but that was not possible so we started from there with many beautiful memories that will be cherised by me everytime, every moment.

After he left we ef's clicked some pictures in his office room and slowly we all moved out, had our lunch and then everyone in my hotel room, to see the cd together. Its an awsome work...it was awsomely crafted by meena aunty and instituted by kishore bhaiya. It was a touchy gift...thnaks again kishore bhaiya and meena aunty...

       Above all it was a priceless experience of my lifetime. I am using simple language and not extraordinary ones because the experience itself was  extraordinary, it DOESNT NEED LANGUAGE TO MAKE IT SO. 

Love you BIG B....you are my everything...my guide ,my idol, my God, my everything...Hope to fulfill my dream of working with him soon....