ANOTHER UNFORGETTABLE DAY OF MY LIFE...

      16TH OF OCTOBER 2011... AS USUAL I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND THE FIRST THING I DO IS CHECK THE TWITTER FOR MY BIG B'S POST, SO THAT I CAN REPLY . WHILE CHECKING THE TWEETS I FOUND OUT THAT BIG B HAD MENTIONED DEVANG JOSHI AN EF MEMBER...AS OBVIOUS HUMAN NATURE I FELT QUITE DEPRESSED, I ALSO DO TRY EVERYTIME BUT WHY DONT I GET A REPLY FROM THE PERSONA I LOVE THE MOST, I ADORE THE MOST?...ANYWAYS WITH A LITTLE HEAVY HEART I COMMENT ON HIS TWEETS AGAIN. DID REQUEST BIG B TO MENTION ONCE MY NAME IN TWITTER ATLEAST...
        GOT UP FRESHENED UP AND READ THE NEWSPAPER..BUT STILL TIME DOESNT TEND TO MOVE FAST ON SUNDAYS...STARTED HELPING MY FRIEND ON HER PROJECT OF PAGE3 REPORTING...THANKS TO THE PROJECT THAT HELPED ME TO PASS TIME FASTER...BUT IN THE MIDST OF THESE I KEPT ON CHECKING THE IPHONE,HOPING TO SEE SOME MIRACLE HAPPEN WITH ME. HOPING TO SEE A NOTIFICATION IN TWITTER APP SHOWING- @SRBACHCHAN KANKANA LOVE YOU TOO......WOW WHAT A FEELING WOULD THAT GIVE BUT FOR THAT MOMENT IT WAS JUST A DREAM AND DIDNT SEEM TO HAPPEN IN REALITY. CONTINUED WITH MY WORK...
        AT AROUND 11.40 A.M. MY CELL PHONE RINGS SHOWING ANTHONY BHAIYA...RECEIVED THE CALL AND FROM THE OTHER SIDE BHAIYA SAYS "KANKANA DID YOU CHECK THE BLOG?" , I REPLIED " NO BHAIYA NOT YET,BUT WHY?", HE REPLIED "CHECK THE BLOG BIG B HAVE REPLIED IN THE BLOG , HE REPLIED TO YOUR COMMENT TOO" ....PAUSE FOR A SECOND ON MY SIDE...THEN I SPEAK,"BHAIYA ARE YOU KIDDING?IT ISNT A JOKE RIGHT?", HE SPOKE" JUST OPEN AND CHECK IT OUT".....OH MY GOD!!! HAVE ALREADY STARTED SCREAMING OUT OF EXCITEMENT, HANDS ALREADY STARTED SHAKING ,PRETTY CONFUSED WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW, WAS BEHAVING LIKE AN IDIOT...(BUT ON A NOTE FOR BIG B -SIR ITS NOT MY FAULT TO BEHAVE AS AN IDIOT,ALMOST EVERYONE DOES IF THEY GET SUCH NEWS)...
       TRIED TO OPEN THE LAPTOP BUT OH GOSH!!! THE ANTI VIRUS KEEPS ON CHECKING THE HARD DRIVE ....CANT WAIT FOR A SINGLE MOMENT...I CALL UP MY BEST FRIEND RIKI IN NOIDA AND ASK HER TO CHECK IT OUT AND SEND ME A SNAP IN MY BLACKBERRY...TOOK A FEW MOMENT TO MAKE HER UNDERSTAND AND THEN SHE DOES AS TOLD...MY BB PINGS AND I SEE THE PICTURE...O MY GOD,O MY GODDDD!!!....ITS TRUE...ALMOST GONE MAD...CALLED MY DAD SHOWED MY MOM...THEY ARE EQUALLY EXCITED AS I AM...LUCKILY MY LAPTOP OPENS AND SOON I OPEN UP THE BIGADDA PAGE AND THEN TO THE COMMENTS AND THEN SCROLL DOWN TO NUMBER 4 COMMENT,DOWN TO THAT IN A YELLOW HIGHLIGHT SHOWS MY GODS COMMENT- "KANKANA...LOVELY MEETING ALL OF YOU"
      KEPT ON READING THAT ONE LINE HIGHLIGHTED IN YELLOW ,TIME AND AGAIN AND PINCHED MYSELF TWICE...ULTIMATELY BELIEVED IT... THE FIRST THING I DID IS THANKED MY BIG B,MY IDOL,MY GOD (BIG B). SECONDLY UPDATED MY FACEBOOK STATUS...WAS FEELING AN INNER PRIDE WHILE UPDATING IT...
      THANK YOU GOD FOR  HEARING MY INNER VOICE. ITS HARD TO DIGEST AS TODAY IN THE MORNING I WAS FEELING BAD AND HOPING TO RECEIVE A COMMENT...AND IT GOT FULFILLED...ITS SO TRULY SAID THAT- IF YOU WANT SOMETHING WHOLE HEARTEDLY IT SURELY GETS FULFILLED...I WANTED WHOLEHEARTEDLY TODAY AND GOD HELPED ME...WISH MY BIGGEST DREAM OF WORKING WITH BIG B , GETS FULFILLED VERY SOON...I WORK HARD EVERYDAY ,EVERY MOMENT FOR IT...BIG B LOVE YOU LOTS ...WILL CONTINUE LOVING TILL I DIE...AAPKO MERI UMAAR LAAG JAAYE SIR...
                                                                                       LOVE N RESPECT 
                                                             KANKANA CHAKRABORTY- A CRAZYYYY FAN

THE PRICELESS MOMENT OF MY LIFE

        Every individual in their life wants to experience the day which they can tag as the most memorable day or the golden moments. Fortunately I have also experienced that day very recently.It was a day in my life which I dont think I can forget even after several rebirths. Rather I would not want to even. That day was 11th october 2011.

       I am a die hard , huge, crazy fan of big b. I idolize, respect and love this persona. He comes 1st in my life and then any other secondary persons. People who are his true fans are my friends.

      My sole dream of life was to meet big b and seek his blessings, as i have an aim to work with him in any of the creative field.On this date it got fulfilled.Every year on this date I send him letters and watch 18 hours television and switch every channel to get a glimpse of my GOD. But this year I got  blessings from my God. Now I know what it feels to see GOD,touch GOD.

      I would like to specially thank two people who made my dream come true- fb group (kishore bhatt and meena akbani), without you two I could have never done this. How much ever I thank you two it would be less. Through this post I would like to recall that special day(11th october 2011).

      That day I landed mumbai airport at around 8.45 am. Every thing was decided and planned well between the fortunate lot of group members. At first we were supposed to meet at a place and then move together to JANAK, my GOD'S office. As per decision it went on. When the clock struck 12 pm we all (Me, meena aunty, kabir, divya,anthony,depal, my mom, vikrant,mayur,devang, anandh, sikander) started our journey for JANAK. That was the moment when I could not control the flying butterflies within my stomach anymore.We reached JANAK and waited for some time outside. I was so excited, till date I visualised the crowd in television but now I could see the madness of the people in real. After sometime meena aunty went inside and slowly she took everyone of us inside. Then it was the time for us to wait for our turn...

Finally the moment arrieved.We went inside this office room and waited for big b to enter.After sometime enters the tall persona-my GOD, oh my GOD!!!!!...That was the first reaction I had. I touched his feet and kept staring at him.Oh god what a personality!!! Then HE started the individual photo session...I was the second one to get the photo..i was literally shaking at that point of time. Then slowly everyone started giving their gifts to him...I also did the same...it was a great feeling, a feeling that cannot be expressed in so limited vocabularies. He was not left for a single moment, me myself didnt leave him...I hope that was obvious for a fan like me meeting her GOD for the first time. 

JUST SEE THE SMILE.....

CAN NEVER FORGET THIS MOMENT...

        Meena aunty gifted Sir the cd that included the poems and notes given by the group members and the EF's .It was a very touchy gift. When we were inside no one bothered to find out how long we were there. Everyone was so deeply involved with their God.This is a persona who still holds the capability to attract every group of people, every generation.No one can ever substitute this persona.Three aspects that India has and not other countries- Taj mahal, Lata Mangeshkar mam and one and only MY BIG B. He was so sweet to listen to whatever I said. He blessed me, He wished me for my birthday. What more should I ask for? He has a magnetic personality, with whom he attracts us and everyone present around HIM. His hands are like a velvet. His smile can wipe away any sad moment. It gives a different sort of happiness that everyone wants to expeirence once.

   The time when HE was leaving I felt my everything was going away. I wish I could keep him always with me...but that was not possible so we started from there with many beautiful memories that will be cherised by me everytime, every moment.

After he left we ef's clicked some pictures in his office room and slowly we all moved out, had our lunch and then everyone in my hotel room, to see the cd together. Its an awsome work...it was awsomely crafted by meena aunty and instituted by kishore bhaiya. It was a touchy gift...thnaks again kishore bhaiya and meena aunty...

       Above all it was a priceless experience of my lifetime. I am using simple language and not extraordinary ones because the experience itself was  extraordinary, it DOESNT NEED LANGUAGE TO MAKE IT SO. 

Love you BIG B....you are my everything...my guide ,my idol, my God, my everything...Hope to fulfill my dream of working with him soon....

Yeah BBUDDAH toh saabka BAAP hain-"Baapre Baap"

   On often being asked the question as to how BIG B gets such energy at this age and still has the capability to give his co-stars a run for their money? We get the answer as - what is there in age? You need to have the willingness to work. I think this kind of mentality still helps to boost the confidence of the 68 years old living legend(going to turn 69 in couple of months) and allows him to give such phenomenol performances.


   The once lean,tall ,deep baritoned voice boy turned international figure very well deserves the titles attached to his name in due course of time(BIG B, Superstar of the Millenium, The shahenshah of bollywood, The ageless Superstar, The trendsetter, The Baap of Bollywood and many more).


  The promos of Bbuddah hoga tera baap(BHTB) used to show - "Call him Don , Shahenshah, Laawaris, Mard...But don't call him Bbuddah". This is most aptly shown. The shahenshah of bollywood have given us enough good reasons in his 40 years of career as to why we should not dare to call him Bbuddah or show him the route to retirement.

  Amitabh Bachchan have allowed his fans to view quite a different genre of acting. We viewed him as the Angry young man in the 70's, as a cop, a victim, an activists, a gangster, a grandfather, a teacher, a helpless husband, the wronged father, a progeric 13 year old boy and many more. But according to me we will get to see Amitabh Bachchan as the real Amitabh Bachchan in BHTB. His brand-value has been well potrayed in this film.BHTB is a visual treat for the die-hard fans of big b.


  In the film big b is introduced by Prakash raaj as "best ka baap" which suits the cool avatar of big b.His entry shot shows him leaning lazzily on the railings of the escalator, I doubt how many of today"s generation actors can carry off the shot with such an attitude? Ridding a Harley Davidson, or simply turning on the charm in a woman quater his age or by kicking off his oponents,the 68 yrs old had a blast on-screen and also provided ample of reasons for his fans to take part in the blast.


  The scene which I loved the most was the penultimate one,in which big b dupes the gang into believing that its the police that is taking over them one by one, and taking advantage he does the "whole-sale clearence" of the gang.


  Amitabh Bachchan have presented many famous dialogues in his whole career but one such famous dialogue of his, used in this film still suits him perfectly..."hum jahan khadey hotey hain line wohin se shuru hoti hain"---till date whatever he does,whatever style he owns becomes a trendsetter for even the present generation.


  BHTB gives us triple treat. Fristly we get to see marvellous acting of big b as we always do, secondly we get the vocal treat from big b( title track, haal-e-dil, go meera go) and thirdly the dance treat. We saw him as the original item boy of bollywood. There is a part in this film were He says "yeah aaj kaal key bachchey log mera gaana gata hain, copy karta hain mera..." this is completely true. Amitabh bachchan gives the present generation the reason to act. They either remake His films or copies His style. He is a package who has something or the other stored for everyone.


  Almost all the Big B fans of his generation claim dat they have grown up seeing His films, I would love to say that even though I am not from HIS generation but I have also grown up watching all his films( saat hindustani- BHTB). I just cant stop myself from thanking one man who could visualise big b in the character of VIJU...Hats off to you PURI SIR, THANKS A TON FOR BRINGING BACK MY IDOL AS I WANTED TO SEE HIM FOR YEARS.


  I am not over here to write a review of BHTB, I dont have that capability within me. But just made an attempt to thank my IDOL for coming back ,as millions of people have wanted to see him and offcourse PURI SIR for bringing BIG B back as we all had desired to see him...


  May GOD bless BIG B and help him to carry on entertaining as he does and also help him to cement the position that he always owned.

LIMIT OF SATISFACTION

    While we were in our trip to rajasthan I came across many small things that really makes me think today...I would like to share one such matter with my readers..It was a chilled winter night, we were returning from the chittor fort after seeing light and sound.The chilly weather of that night affected my father a lot,so he threw an offer to have a cup of tea.Chittor is a very small place but a beautiful one,as per my father's want we found out a quality tea stall and ordered three cups of tea.At that moment tea was much refreshing for all of us.My father went down and placed the order,and we(me,riki and my mom) were busy doing our bit of work.Out at that time I noticed a very known but an unusual view.
      A cart puller stopped just beside our car and was attracted to something lying down on the road.I myself tried to see what it was.He picked up an "use and throw pen",whose cover was broken into pieces.He gazzed at the pen for a while and then started examining whether the pen contained ink or not?As he found that the pen still had the capability to write,he looked here and there and finally placed the pen in his pocket and moved on.
      It might be very simple for the class of people the cart puller belonged to but it was something unsual a view for me.This matter made me think on the fact that is generally taught to every kid.."waste not ,want not"
While buying an use and throw pen we generally spend 2/- and throw it away without completely using it..but there are some people who do wait for our throwing away, so that they can pick it up and start consuming it.We sometimes do forget the value of things that we use or possess.We often dont be satisfied with what we have?We always want more.But if we think once about the group of people who dont have the capacity to fulfill their wants,then we might understand the value of things.We should consider ourselves to be blessed by GOD as because we atleast have the capability to fulfill our wants.
    Everyone considers that the problems they face in life is the worst a person can face.But thats not true according to me.If we try to forget our problem and look at others then we can understand that our problem is much minimal compared to them.This matter did make me understand that a person can lead his or her life happily if they are satisfied with whatever they have with them.So my reader friends it is quite truly said, life is very short ,so enjoy it and forget the sadness attached with life...also try to find out the hidden happiness of sharing...I thank GOD for whatever HE have given me...

Children-the sweetest gift from GOD.

     Children Children Children.....they are somewhat like "BIG OFFERS IN SMALL PACKAGES".They can do certain things that even we ,who are elder to them find it difficult to do.Yesterday was a fun filled day for me,as because I had to spend time with two such sweetest gifts of GOD.They are my niece....believe it or not ,I didnt even understand how time passed off yesterday.

     Now-a-days even they have become more techno savy than us...they can handle almost all the technical goods with an ease.Yesterday one of my niece was quite comfortable in clicking snaps with the help of my cell phone.

ayushi clicking snaps with my cell phone.

Poushali.... too confused between the two remote controls....



They need something or the other to be busy.They just can't sit idle anywhere,they need to show how busy they are.







Little cutie pie trying to climb up the huge bed

Busy finding something...she herself doesn't know what ...but as we know,that can't sit idle

Ayushi is  busy giving poses...............



      So I hope you people can understand how I had to spend my day yesterday...and I hope everybody would face the same, when two such sweetest gifts of GOD are with them.

     On a sweet note as such ,I would like to end my post out over here.

BESTEST PART OF MY LIFE-RIKI BISWAS...OUR FRIENDSHIP ROCKS BUDDY...

                             A FRIEND IS SOMEONE YOU CAN BE ALONE WITH

                                                    AND HAVE NOTHING TO DO

                             AND NOT BE ABLE TO THINK OF ANYTHING TO SAY

                                         AND BE COMFORTABLE IN THE SILENCE 

          Friendship is an unique relationship.It can be defined as - a single soul,dwelling in two bodies.It is a feeling of comfort and emotional safety with a person.Friendship is a relationship in which someone understands you better than yourself and always promises to be with you in your hard times.
   

          In this mechanical world it is really tough to have a true friend.True friendship is unconditional.It can survive all the odd phases of life.I consider myself to be fortunate enough ,to have the presence of a true friend in my life.My true friend is RIKI BISWAS.She is the bestest part of my life.

         13th january is the date that we both want to keep engraved in our heart.I can proudly claim that our friendship is an perfect example of true friendship.Riki is a friend who have made me understand what it feels to be with someone who cares about youy unconditionally.When I enjoyed happiness,she did.When I achieved ,she celebrated.When I cried ,she wipped off my tears.She have helped me to change myself,change my life.

        Howmuch ever I thank her,it will remain insufficient in comparison to the happy moments that she have made me taste.Many think that distance can bring can lead to an end in friendship.But we have even proved that wrong.According to me,one should not worry about these petty matters when they know that their friendship is true and unconditional.

      For me true friendship are like rare treasures.So we should try to treasure it with great care and love.It is rightly said-"who finds a true friend, finds a treasure"

     I would like to thank riki whole-heartedly,for being my rare treasure.I don't know how much I could match up to your expectations,but you did and I have no complaints against you.I would like to suggest all my friends-HOLD A TRUE FRIEND ,WITH BOTH YOUR HANDS.......

I love you riki,you are just awsome.....our friendship rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DAY OF PRIDE,DAY OF ACHIEVEMENT

   Today my morning started at around 6.30 a.m. Morning was filled with excitements and some amount of expectations.Expectations to make my parents feel proud.Expectations are feelings that can boost your energy to reach your destinations before the destined time.A somewhat same kind of feeling was working within me,and my destination today was KALAMANDIR,where the annual function and the prize distribution ceremony of our college(shri shikshayatan) was to be held.So just got up,had a glass of luke warm water and rushed off to the washroom.

      Our dress code was either a saree or a salwar.Out here i chose to pick up a salwar suit from my wardrobe,which was green and yellow in combination.Got ready and at around 8.30 a.m. started off from our house.On  my way different thoughts were pokeing me constantly, as to what would be the programmes starting? who would give away the prize? most important and above all what would I feel when my name would be announced?what would be my parent's feelings at that time? would I look perfect? what not!!! I know these things are quite childish but still they were the most beautiful feeling for me. Anyone would like to cherish those moments throughout. Thoughts just swapped off as we reached KALAMANDIR.

    Saw many such faces which I thought would have the same feelings inside them.Stepped out of the car with my parents.At that time I could sense a feeling of proudness on my parents face.Met with the professors,who crafted us for three years,and then waited for the right time to arrive.

     KALAMANDIR is a place with which my past memories are attached.On february '08 kalamandir became our (me, riki, sangomitra,anuradha) place for celebration.We had won the first prize for film making organised by NSHM institute.That day I achieved something and today also I did,most of the situations were same,but the main was missing a lot,i.e. my being and celebrating with my best friend riki biswas.

      Finally everybody was asked to step inside the auditorium.The prize recepients were given token numbers according to their achievements.The winners were made to sit on one side and the parents on other side.Slowly but steadily all the arrangements were moving forward.Ultimately the programme started with an opening song,followed by the speech given by -prof.anuradha banerjee and president mr.kahitan.

     After the completion of the speech the most awaited moment of all came to reality.The prizes were given by prof.anuradha banerjee and prof. utpal chaterjee. Butterflies were just flying here and there in my tummy,while waiting for my turn.At that moment one prays for fine procedure,but i was busy with my outfit and hair.Just then my name KANKANA CHAKRABORTY was announced.I just got still faced for 2 seconds and sensed a slight push from one of our teacher,asking me to step up onto the dias.Finally I controlled my excitement and stepped up on the dias,recieved my prize,blessings and congratulations,then stepped down from the other side of the dias.That moment was filled with every kind of feelings,except the feeling of sorrow.I was filled with tones and tones of pride and happiness.

     After sometimes the prize distribution ceremony was over and everywhere in the auditorium we could see smiling faces of the prize winners and their parents congratulating them.The time arrieved when we had to leave the auditorium.Carrying my prizes with great care we moved out of kalamandir.Back home and started facing the normal routine.

    Today is going to be the first day of my blog,my own space.A big vote of thanks to riki,I hope she knows as to why I thanked her.I am feeling quite happy to start something new with my own achievement.11th december is a date that I will always remember in my life and will also surely cherish it.These are the moments that make you proud of yourself and boost up your confidence, to take up a new challenge and also taste success in it.

    Okay so without extending much more ,I would like to end up this post with very sweet memories of mine.I hope you people will like reading it,as I enjoyed writing it.I also do promise to blog with my full soul. So do keep supporting me.

    GOOD NIGHT AND LOVE YOU ALL.