26/11 -THE DATE SAYS IT ALL...

Todays date is enough for me to write my article-- 26th november...in the year 2008 was nothing less than a worst nightmare...three years later also it pokes me somewere within that why we had to face such a day? why did they do this? what did they achieve by doing it? and many more hidden questions whose answer is not yet clear for a normal human being, who might have been affected some way or the other that day(26.11.08)...

Thanks to the electronic and the print media for whom we were always updated about the happenings, could visualize the destructions, pain, fear.....it was not a smooth watch even...when I went off to sleep that day and the following two days, atleast once I used to think what are those that are facing the disaster going through? what more are they facing at this moment?...I know some might think after reading this, that I was just thinking about all this sitting in my own comfort zone...but that was the most that I could do at that very moment...as because no one except the ones who faced can imagine even, what it is to see or know that you can die any moment...

After this incident I one day came across the book written on KASAB...dont know what was going within me at that moment!! but I bought the book...and I sarted reading the first page on that moment itself...and now when I completed reading the book, I feel, might be the hidden anger that I had and still have for this creature, made me read the book and know about this Butcher(KASAB)...he truly proves his names meaning - BUTCHER...

After reading the book I did come to know many things about how these people turn from a human being to a merciless creature?...came to know why they become so? and many more such things...after reading the total incident how it happened, I cant express what was my feeling... what kind of uneasiness I was facing within me myself.. how much bitterness did I gather while reading it..the question that repeatedly went on within me was HOW? HOW can a human being kill another such species in such a merciless way? what have they turned into? atleast animals are more merciful than them...

We who were not directly affected with the incident might have forgotten to some extent...but we cant even imagine what it is and was for the families who faced its outcome.. will they ever be able to forget this day? will they ever be able to clear a hidden fear from their inner soul? they might try to show they are brave and have started leading their normal life, but down the memory lane many couldnt forget, they cant forget ,which is obvious...people say mumbai have faced a lot and they again have the ability to forget and lead their normal life...its true but another hidden truth is - do they really have any other choice rather than this?

Innocent people were killed without any fault of theirs, they were not even given a moment to realize what was happening, they didnt have the oppertunity to fight back...WHY? I dont think the ALMIGHTY sitting up there even have the answer to this common question...

Wanna give a respectful SALUTE to our INDIAN ARMY and MUMBAI POLICE DEPT...the ones that sacrificed their lives for saving these innocent people...I dont want to mention any particular name because apart from the names that were mentioned at that moment there might have been many such brave men whose name didnt get noticed...so I SALUTE to all those brave hearted men who sacrificed their lives for the nation without a second thought...they fought for us unconditionally...howmuch ever we praise them it will fall short in front of their contribution and sacrifice...

Want to ask GOD that are all these incidents really needed? why are we facing a situtation, were human beings have become so in-human that they are ready to take each others life mercilessly?...what can one achieve by doing so? what pleasure does GOD get by making such things happen?whats the fault of those innocent hawkers in the station, those innocent people who might have been in the station to recieve some near or dear ones, those innocent people who where having dinner with their loved ones, the innocent people who were on visit, and many such innocent people who while leaving their house that day, didnt even imagine that they wont return back?..

After three years, even today the culprits are not given due punishments...why? huhhh!! I consider myself to be foolish to ask such a question, because I dont think we will ever get an answer to it...

How much ever I write its not going to give back the families their lost ones, nor will it be able to wipe out the fear from within the ones who faced it, nor will it help to rectify the situations...but still I decided to write because somewere within ,some unidentified force, forced me to write ...might be this is how I wanted to remember the sacrificed souls, the horrific incident and today's date...

I would like to end by praying to GOD, that please dont repeat such incidents, use your magical wand to stop these happenings,we dont need them in our lives...the sun rises and sets on YOUR wish so control the uneasiness and the inner animal of these in- humans who are doing all these merciless incidents...

After reading the article many might like what I wrote and many might not...but I am not writing it for being praised, I am writing it as a form of shradhanjali from my end,for the innocent souls who lost their life on that horrendous day...may their souls rest in peace...

My this article is not only for the victims of 26/11 but for all the innocent victims who were preyed upon by the illeterate villains and the inhuman creatures...

LIFE IS PRECIOUS DONT END IT IN SUCH A WAY!!!

           Was thinking about a matter from the past few days. An incident that struck me..even tough its a very common one now-a-days..but dont know why? Few days back i went to a studio for some work over there I found a little girl posing for kids wear..she was so cute went and hugged her...she was so so so sweet hardly the age of 6 years...had a great time watching her give cute and innocent poses. After she went away I came to know a bitter true about her life..her father had committed suicide a year ago,her mother is working as a baby sitter and she performs such modelling..they are very needy...I dont know what I was feeling at that moment...i really dont...i was just silent at that moment and tried to find some answer as to why people do this?...but just couldnt...at that moment i was only recollecting the innocent moment I enjoyed with the little girl...does she really understands the absence of father at this age? How will she react as she grows up? What will she answer others when,will be asked as to how her father died? why ?What is the judgement of God?

         Kept on thinking this very incident for the past few days...why do people run away from their responsibility? Its not necessary that our life will be smooth all the time...! yesterday had a lazy day so decided of reading books...so after searching choose the one that was gifted to me by my friend- Robin Sharma-Discover Your Destiny...started reading the book completed an entire chapter...it is a complete inspirational book, from the first chapter itself it boosts ones confidence. The author himself writes in the first chapter that He once tried to commit suicide when he found that his wife left him together with his children, but certain sort of force stopped him...he just couldnt commit suicide.

The author quotes a true saying of osho

 Life does not listen to your logic;it goes on its on way,undisturbed.

You have to listen to life, life will not listen to your logic...

          I feel that people committing suicide are coward they dont have the ability to face the bad side of life...as stated in the book , there are season to our lives and painful time never lasts..

"trust that the winter of sorrow will yield to the summer of your joy, just as the brilliant rays of the morning always follow the darkest part of the night"...

I feel if anyone sees life like this then that individual will never say "I dont find a way out" in case of problems or sorrow... We often feel that the problems that we face are the biggest one ,no one else can face such a problem. But if anyone thinks and sees properly then we will find that our suffering is nothing compared to others...

      Few days before KBC had showcased such problem...in their special episode dusra mauka , were they gave chance to a widow of a farmer to earn some money that will help her in someway...her husband was a farmer who committed suicide because of the debt..but she inspite of loosing everything  was still able to lead her life with her children...she had to face many problems but she was able to overcome it...did her husband even think once that what would his family  face due to his desicion? KBC, hats off for giving a second chance to these needy people.

       Through these write up I would only like to request and suggest that ending up the life is not the solution...ending life is a sign of a looser and not a winner...by commiting suicide we tend to run from our responsibility...we forget how the soldiers are fighting for our lives at the cost of theirs...we should try to develop the courage within ourselves to fight with the odds..when we can welcome happy moments in our life so properly then why cant we also welcome the odds...I know its easy to say but hard to perform...but if everyone keeps on thinking this then this problem will never end...we have lost the capability to try out something new...we always try to be under the shelter...we get afraid when any change enters our life...we tend to fail with new changes...and for some they choose the solution of suicide...

    Some might think that I am quite small to comment on the hardship of life..but the fact is I will also grow to that age someday were I will have to face hardship of life...I atleast will never want to end my life in such a way, running away from responsibilities...I want to grow confidence and enough courage within me to welcome the odds of my life as I do in case of happy moments...bless me GOD, bless me elders...

     I would like to earnestly request all the individuals of this country to avoid this solution...suicide is not the solution...its a way that depicts failure...a little suggestion if possible read the books of Robin Sharma....they are truly inspirational...

 I would like to end the write up by stating a line from the book itself-

"Your life is a treasure and you are so much more than you know"

ANOTHER UNFORGETTABLE DAY OF MY LIFE...

      16TH OF OCTOBER 2011... AS USUAL I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND THE FIRST THING I DO IS CHECK THE TWITTER FOR MY BIG B'S POST, SO THAT I CAN REPLY . WHILE CHECKING THE TWEETS I FOUND OUT THAT BIG B HAD MENTIONED DEVANG JOSHI AN EF MEMBER...AS OBVIOUS HUMAN NATURE I FELT QUITE DEPRESSED, I ALSO DO TRY EVERYTIME BUT WHY DONT I GET A REPLY FROM THE PERSONA I LOVE THE MOST, I ADORE THE MOST?...ANYWAYS WITH A LITTLE HEAVY HEART I COMMENT ON HIS TWEETS AGAIN. DID REQUEST BIG B TO MENTION ONCE MY NAME IN TWITTER ATLEAST...
        GOT UP FRESHENED UP AND READ THE NEWSPAPER..BUT STILL TIME DOESNT TEND TO MOVE FAST ON SUNDAYS...STARTED HELPING MY FRIEND ON HER PROJECT OF PAGE3 REPORTING...THANKS TO THE PROJECT THAT HELPED ME TO PASS TIME FASTER...BUT IN THE MIDST OF THESE I KEPT ON CHECKING THE IPHONE,HOPING TO SEE SOME MIRACLE HAPPEN WITH ME. HOPING TO SEE A NOTIFICATION IN TWITTER APP SHOWING- @SRBACHCHAN KANKANA LOVE YOU TOO......WOW WHAT A FEELING WOULD THAT GIVE BUT FOR THAT MOMENT IT WAS JUST A DREAM AND DIDNT SEEM TO HAPPEN IN REALITY. CONTINUED WITH MY WORK...
        AT AROUND 11.40 A.M. MY CELL PHONE RINGS SHOWING ANTHONY BHAIYA...RECEIVED THE CALL AND FROM THE OTHER SIDE BHAIYA SAYS "KANKANA DID YOU CHECK THE BLOG?" , I REPLIED " NO BHAIYA NOT YET,BUT WHY?", HE REPLIED "CHECK THE BLOG BIG B HAVE REPLIED IN THE BLOG , HE REPLIED TO YOUR COMMENT TOO" ....PAUSE FOR A SECOND ON MY SIDE...THEN I SPEAK,"BHAIYA ARE YOU KIDDING?IT ISNT A JOKE RIGHT?", HE SPOKE" JUST OPEN AND CHECK IT OUT".....OH MY GOD!!! HAVE ALREADY STARTED SCREAMING OUT OF EXCITEMENT, HANDS ALREADY STARTED SHAKING ,PRETTY CONFUSED WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW, WAS BEHAVING LIKE AN IDIOT...(BUT ON A NOTE FOR BIG B -SIR ITS NOT MY FAULT TO BEHAVE AS AN IDIOT,ALMOST EVERYONE DOES IF THEY GET SUCH NEWS)...
       TRIED TO OPEN THE LAPTOP BUT OH GOSH!!! THE ANTI VIRUS KEEPS ON CHECKING THE HARD DRIVE ....CANT WAIT FOR A SINGLE MOMENT...I CALL UP MY BEST FRIEND RIKI IN NOIDA AND ASK HER TO CHECK IT OUT AND SEND ME A SNAP IN MY BLACKBERRY...TOOK A FEW MOMENT TO MAKE HER UNDERSTAND AND THEN SHE DOES AS TOLD...MY BB PINGS AND I SEE THE PICTURE...O MY GOD,O MY GODDDD!!!....ITS TRUE...ALMOST GONE MAD...CALLED MY DAD SHOWED MY MOM...THEY ARE EQUALLY EXCITED AS I AM...LUCKILY MY LAPTOP OPENS AND SOON I OPEN UP THE BIGADDA PAGE AND THEN TO THE COMMENTS AND THEN SCROLL DOWN TO NUMBER 4 COMMENT,DOWN TO THAT IN A YELLOW HIGHLIGHT SHOWS MY GODS COMMENT- "KANKANA...LOVELY MEETING ALL OF YOU"
      KEPT ON READING THAT ONE LINE HIGHLIGHTED IN YELLOW ,TIME AND AGAIN AND PINCHED MYSELF TWICE...ULTIMATELY BELIEVED IT... THE FIRST THING I DID IS THANKED MY BIG B,MY IDOL,MY GOD (BIG B). SECONDLY UPDATED MY FACEBOOK STATUS...WAS FEELING AN INNER PRIDE WHILE UPDATING IT...
      THANK YOU GOD FOR  HEARING MY INNER VOICE. ITS HARD TO DIGEST AS TODAY IN THE MORNING I WAS FEELING BAD AND HOPING TO RECEIVE A COMMENT...AND IT GOT FULFILLED...ITS SO TRULY SAID THAT- IF YOU WANT SOMETHING WHOLE HEARTEDLY IT SURELY GETS FULFILLED...I WANTED WHOLEHEARTEDLY TODAY AND GOD HELPED ME...WISH MY BIGGEST DREAM OF WORKING WITH BIG B , GETS FULFILLED VERY SOON...I WORK HARD EVERYDAY ,EVERY MOMENT FOR IT...BIG B LOVE YOU LOTS ...WILL CONTINUE LOVING TILL I DIE...AAPKO MERI UMAAR LAAG JAAYE SIR...
                                                                                       LOVE N RESPECT 
                                                             KANKANA CHAKRABORTY- A CRAZYYYY FAN

THE PRICELESS MOMENT OF MY LIFE

        Every individual in their life wants to experience the day which they can tag as the most memorable day or the golden moments. Fortunately I have also experienced that day very recently.It was a day in my life which I dont think I can forget even after several rebirths. Rather I would not want to even. That day was 11th october 2011.

       I am a die hard , huge, crazy fan of big b. I idolize, respect and love this persona. He comes 1st in my life and then any other secondary persons. People who are his true fans are my friends.

      My sole dream of life was to meet big b and seek his blessings, as i have an aim to work with him in any of the creative field.On this date it got fulfilled.Every year on this date I send him letters and watch 18 hours television and switch every channel to get a glimpse of my GOD. But this year I got  blessings from my God. Now I know what it feels to see GOD,touch GOD.

      I would like to specially thank two people who made my dream come true- fb group (kishore bhatt and meena akbani), without you two I could have never done this. How much ever I thank you two it would be less. Through this post I would like to recall that special day(11th october 2011).

      That day I landed mumbai airport at around 8.45 am. Every thing was decided and planned well between the fortunate lot of group members. At first we were supposed to meet at a place and then move together to JANAK, my GOD'S office. As per decision it went on. When the clock struck 12 pm we all (Me, meena aunty, kabir, divya,anthony,depal, my mom, vikrant,mayur,devang, anandh, sikander) started our journey for JANAK. That was the moment when I could not control the flying butterflies within my stomach anymore.We reached JANAK and waited for some time outside. I was so excited, till date I visualised the crowd in television but now I could see the madness of the people in real. After sometime meena aunty went inside and slowly she took everyone of us inside. Then it was the time for us to wait for our turn...

Finally the moment arrieved.We went inside this office room and waited for big b to enter.After sometime enters the tall persona-my GOD, oh my GOD!!!!!...That was the first reaction I had. I touched his feet and kept staring at him.Oh god what a personality!!! Then HE started the individual photo session...I was the second one to get the photo..i was literally shaking at that point of time. Then slowly everyone started giving their gifts to him...I also did the same...it was a great feeling, a feeling that cannot be expressed in so limited vocabularies. He was not left for a single moment, me myself didnt leave him...I hope that was obvious for a fan like me meeting her GOD for the first time. 

JUST SEE THE SMILE.....

CAN NEVER FORGET THIS MOMENT...

        Meena aunty gifted Sir the cd that included the poems and notes given by the group members and the EF's .It was a very touchy gift. When we were inside no one bothered to find out how long we were there. Everyone was so deeply involved with their God.This is a persona who still holds the capability to attract every group of people, every generation.No one can ever substitute this persona.Three aspects that India has and not other countries- Taj mahal, Lata Mangeshkar mam and one and only MY BIG B. He was so sweet to listen to whatever I said. He blessed me, He wished me for my birthday. What more should I ask for? He has a magnetic personality, with whom he attracts us and everyone present around HIM. His hands are like a velvet. His smile can wipe away any sad moment. It gives a different sort of happiness that everyone wants to expeirence once.

   The time when HE was leaving I felt my everything was going away. I wish I could keep him always with me...but that was not possible so we started from there with many beautiful memories that will be cherised by me everytime, every moment.

After he left we ef's clicked some pictures in his office room and slowly we all moved out, had our lunch and then everyone in my hotel room, to see the cd together. Its an awsome work...it was awsomely crafted by meena aunty and instituted by kishore bhaiya. It was a touchy gift...thnaks again kishore bhaiya and meena aunty...

       Above all it was a priceless experience of my lifetime. I am using simple language and not extraordinary ones because the experience itself was  extraordinary, it DOESNT NEED LANGUAGE TO MAKE IT SO. 

Love you BIG B....you are my everything...my guide ,my idol, my God, my everything...Hope to fulfill my dream of working with him soon....

Yeah BBUDDAH toh saabka BAAP hain-"Baapre Baap"

   On often being asked the question as to how BIG B gets such energy at this age and still has the capability to give his co-stars a run for their money? We get the answer as - what is there in age? You need to have the willingness to work. I think this kind of mentality still helps to boost the confidence of the 68 years old living legend(going to turn 69 in couple of months) and allows him to give such phenomenol performances.


   The once lean,tall ,deep baritoned voice boy turned international figure very well deserves the titles attached to his name in due course of time(BIG B, Superstar of the Millenium, The shahenshah of bollywood, The ageless Superstar, The trendsetter, The Baap of Bollywood and many more).


  The promos of Bbuddah hoga tera baap(BHTB) used to show - "Call him Don , Shahenshah, Laawaris, Mard...But don't call him Bbuddah". This is most aptly shown. The shahenshah of bollywood have given us enough good reasons in his 40 years of career as to why we should not dare to call him Bbuddah or show him the route to retirement.

  Amitabh Bachchan have allowed his fans to view quite a different genre of acting. We viewed him as the Angry young man in the 70's, as a cop, a victim, an activists, a gangster, a grandfather, a teacher, a helpless husband, the wronged father, a progeric 13 year old boy and many more. But according to me we will get to see Amitabh Bachchan as the real Amitabh Bachchan in BHTB. His brand-value has been well potrayed in this film.BHTB is a visual treat for the die-hard fans of big b.


  In the film big b is introduced by Prakash raaj as "best ka baap" which suits the cool avatar of big b.His entry shot shows him leaning lazzily on the railings of the escalator, I doubt how many of today"s generation actors can carry off the shot with such an attitude? Ridding a Harley Davidson, or simply turning on the charm in a woman quater his age or by kicking off his oponents,the 68 yrs old had a blast on-screen and also provided ample of reasons for his fans to take part in the blast.


  The scene which I loved the most was the penultimate one,in which big b dupes the gang into believing that its the police that is taking over them one by one, and taking advantage he does the "whole-sale clearence" of the gang.


  Amitabh Bachchan have presented many famous dialogues in his whole career but one such famous dialogue of his, used in this film still suits him perfectly..."hum jahan khadey hotey hain line wohin se shuru hoti hain"---till date whatever he does,whatever style he owns becomes a trendsetter for even the present generation.


  BHTB gives us triple treat. Fristly we get to see marvellous acting of big b as we always do, secondly we get the vocal treat from big b( title track, haal-e-dil, go meera go) and thirdly the dance treat. We saw him as the original item boy of bollywood. There is a part in this film were He says "yeah aaj kaal key bachchey log mera gaana gata hain, copy karta hain mera..." this is completely true. Amitabh bachchan gives the present generation the reason to act. They either remake His films or copies His style. He is a package who has something or the other stored for everyone.


  Almost all the Big B fans of his generation claim dat they have grown up seeing His films, I would love to say that even though I am not from HIS generation but I have also grown up watching all his films( saat hindustani- BHTB). I just cant stop myself from thanking one man who could visualise big b in the character of VIJU...Hats off to you PURI SIR, THANKS A TON FOR BRINGING BACK MY IDOL AS I WANTED TO SEE HIM FOR YEARS.


  I am not over here to write a review of BHTB, I dont have that capability within me. But just made an attempt to thank my IDOL for coming back ,as millions of people have wanted to see him and offcourse PURI SIR for bringing BIG B back as we all had desired to see him...


  May GOD bless BIG B and help him to carry on entertaining as he does and also help him to cement the position that he always owned.

LIMIT OF SATISFACTION

    While we were in our trip to rajasthan I came across many small things that really makes me think today...I would like to share one such matter with my readers..It was a chilled winter night, we were returning from the chittor fort after seeing light and sound.The chilly weather of that night affected my father a lot,so he threw an offer to have a cup of tea.Chittor is a very small place but a beautiful one,as per my father's want we found out a quality tea stall and ordered three cups of tea.At that moment tea was much refreshing for all of us.My father went down and placed the order,and we(me,riki and my mom) were busy doing our bit of work.Out at that time I noticed a very known but an unusual view.
      A cart puller stopped just beside our car and was attracted to something lying down on the road.I myself tried to see what it was.He picked up an "use and throw pen",whose cover was broken into pieces.He gazzed at the pen for a while and then started examining whether the pen contained ink or not?As he found that the pen still had the capability to write,he looked here and there and finally placed the pen in his pocket and moved on.
      It might be very simple for the class of people the cart puller belonged to but it was something unsual a view for me.This matter made me think on the fact that is generally taught to every kid.."waste not ,want not"
While buying an use and throw pen we generally spend 2/- and throw it away without completely using it..but there are some people who do wait for our throwing away, so that they can pick it up and start consuming it.We sometimes do forget the value of things that we use or possess.We often dont be satisfied with what we have?We always want more.But if we think once about the group of people who dont have the capacity to fulfill their wants,then we might understand the value of things.We should consider ourselves to be blessed by GOD as because we atleast have the capability to fulfill our wants.
    Everyone considers that the problems they face in life is the worst a person can face.But thats not true according to me.If we try to forget our problem and look at others then we can understand that our problem is much minimal compared to them.This matter did make me understand that a person can lead his or her life happily if they are satisfied with whatever they have with them.So my reader friends it is quite truly said, life is very short ,so enjoy it and forget the sadness attached with life...also try to find out the hidden happiness of sharing...I thank GOD for whatever HE have given me...

Children-the sweetest gift from GOD.

     Children Children Children.....they are somewhat like "BIG OFFERS IN SMALL PACKAGES".They can do certain things that even we ,who are elder to them find it difficult to do.Yesterday was a fun filled day for me,as because I had to spend time with two such sweetest gifts of GOD.They are my niece....believe it or not ,I didnt even understand how time passed off yesterday.

     Now-a-days even they have become more techno savy than us...they can handle almost all the technical goods with an ease.Yesterday one of my niece was quite comfortable in clicking snaps with the help of my cell phone.

ayushi clicking snaps with my cell phone.

Poushali.... too confused between the two remote controls....



They need something or the other to be busy.They just can't sit idle anywhere,they need to show how busy they are.







Little cutie pie trying to climb up the huge bed

Busy finding something...she herself doesn't know what ...but as we know,that can't sit idle

Ayushi is  busy giving poses...............



      So I hope you people can understand how I had to spend my day yesterday...and I hope everybody would face the same, when two such sweetest gifts of GOD are with them.

     On a sweet note as such ,I would like to end my post out over here.